Shea's Blog

i will soon... promise

2006-09-04T22:11:00.001-07:00

so i really want to write about everything that has been going on these past couple of days. but i am soo tired and emotional and i really need sleep.. did i mention i am so tired... ?? anyways i have school in the morning and have to be up at 5! yippy! so i will write .. soon i promise

i will soon... promise

2006-09-04T22:11:00.000-07:00

scary dream...monsters in your room

2006-08-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

so it 2:11 in the morning... and i dont think i have ever been so scared... i had the worst dream of my life... i do not want to go into detail but aww i was scary... and now i am afraid to shut my computer... i know so lame... but it was a dream like i could not wake up out of and then i did but it took my body a few mins. to notice that i was awake ... so i felt like i could not move fo rlike a min... and man aw that made my dream so much scary... it was scary... the mind i think is the weirdest thing in the world... in my dream i was being chaced by really scary people and then some crazy guy found me and trying to kill me... awwww... gosh i dont want to think about it or i am never getting back to sleep... all in all this is a lame blog i just wrote it to not be scared any more... i wish my mom was in town... this is soo one of those times where i would run into my parents room and ask them to look for monsters.. i really think there might be a monsters in my room .... aww bad nights of sleep suckk... i hate scary dreams... baaa and monsters in your room.....

dont for get i have been a sleep for 4 hours and just got woken up by a bad dream... there are reassons for really really bad spelling!

The ocean

2006-08-02T20:57:00.000-07:00

So, the one think I have learned over the past 2 years is the place I feel like I connect the best with the lord and focus more is when I am at the beach looking out onto the ocean. Right now I am babysitting at a beach house right on the water... I hear the waves crashing... I can taste the salt water in my mouth AND the sand in my toes... That's how close I am to it. You know the train station at Pico.. Right next to the 7-11? Well the houses to the right of the train station are the houses I am at right now.
The kids are all in bed right now and I have about 2 more hours of sitting in this house looking over the amazing horizon and thinking about just how amazing the lord is. The beach bring a calming feeling over my body... I really cant explain it. But right now I am thankful that the lord has given me these 2 hours.. I feel like my life has been non stop since the day I got out of school. With hume coming in 3 days I am going to be going a mile a min. So right now god has given me an amazing gift. A gift of comfort and a time to regenerate myself. Its funny, I was not looking forward to babysitting today, I didn't want to have to entertain 3 kids for 5 hours. But it was all worth it. it was worth the burning myself while cooking stupid pasta, and watching lame Asian shows. Just to have these 2 hours to spend with God. Your probably thinking... "YOUR BLOGING... That's not spending time with God." but something that this comforting environment has shown me is that blogging can so be a great time spent with God.

The time is 5:22

2006-07-22T05:25:00.000-07:00

Wow... So I have been up already today for about 7 whole mins... I don't think I have ever been this tired... And I don't think I have been up this early in a really long time... The reason for being up so early is the airport... I have to take this family I have never met before the airport in there car... And then drive it allll the way home... An easy job I thought it would be yesterday... But now I am rethinking my commitment... Sounds like a suck morning huh? But what I forgot to say tell you is that I get a whole 50 $s.! Witch is sweet and I really needed! So lets just pray that the lord will guide me with amazing eyes that wont fall a sleep!

agian this might be the worst blog ever.... but its 5:22... so who cares!!

Over Analyzer

2006-07-08T23:11:00.000-07:00

How do you know if your making the right decisions in life?
tonight was a really hard decision making night.... I really was all over the place... I think I was following Gods will... But then I question myself.
I think I am the biggest over analyzer on the face of the planet. I think about ever little detail in every different angle. I hate that sometimes. Especially when it gets in the way when trying to making decision that have to deal with other peoples hearts and minds.
my goal was never to hurt anyone... I was just trying my hardest to do what I think God was and is calling me to do. I just hate that it means giving up something I care for.
so what I learned tonight is that... Life is amazing but there are times where you have to give things up to let new and amazing things in. Who knows maybe the things God is taking out of my life now... I will someday be ready for again.

Blog

2006-07-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

so i finally got a blog.. i dont really know how this is going to work but i think it would be good!